With the Grace of a Woman

I apologize for being so MIA lately.

Life.
'Nuff said? I'm sure you can relate...

It's a very hard month for me, and I have been doing everything and anything I can do to stay as busy and happy as possible.

This time six months ago, my world as I knew it was completely turned upside down. For the last six months, I have been giving it my all to climb back on my horse...

And three nights ago, was thrown off again. News that I have been fearing to learn for the last six months finally got around to me.

I hate not having control, not being able to fix this lingering situation...
knowing that it will never be fixed, and the only thing I can do is move on.

Big changes in life are getting ready to take place. I landed a job at a school who's benefits include free tuition for grad school. I'm pretty excited about the opportunity, and to be able to take pride in saying, "I never thought I would, but yes- I went back for Grad School. For me. Because I wanted to and because I'm smart enough to."

Cons: I'm moving back to the city where 5 years of sweet memories were made. Back to old friends who will question what happened. Back to the city that I once associated with him, with our home. I'm doing this for me- to conquer this. To be independent again. To become a stronger woman...

Stick with me the next few weeks- it's going to be crazy hectic wrapping things up around here. Saying goodbye to the incredible friends that I've made here. Goodbye to my family and my security here. And hello to a new world of independence...

Another chapter in my story coming tonight or tomorrow.